I’m sure you’re wondering why I gave this blog that title, or maybe it’s obvious. What am I going to do with one more child? In other words, I am pregnant, AGAIN! I have to admit; I was shocked at first. But then reality set in. I started to think about bills, late night crying, doctor’s appointments to add into the mix, diaper changing, the nightmares of breastfeeding, insomnia but also fatigue, and even more crying… I’m sure you understand. I also felt a bit of shame. I was embarrassed to even admit I was pregnant. Here I am under 30, pregnant with my fourth child, while also being a mother to four children already (five in total). I was afraid of what people may say or think of me, despite my husband making me an honest woman about seven years ago. I was scared of being the stereotype, you know, always pregnant and barefoot (just to clarify, it’s really not all that bad. A pregnant woman’s feet get swollen).
After I got past my tears and self-pity, I came to realize this was a gift. It was also an eye opener. As many of you know, I have a BA in Creative Writing and a MA in Public Relations. What many of you may not know is that I obtained both degrees while pregnant, VERY PREGNANT. I was literally in labor while turning in assignments. The point I’m trying to make is that my children didn’t stop me from meeting my goals and achieving my dreams. If anything, they motivated me to keep going. They taught me how to be resilient. My children are the greatest gifts God could possible give me. If any of you have met my children, they are the most vibrant, exciting, talkative, and charismatic children you will ever know. I don’t see this little one being any different. They give me life! They give me purpose! They push me to be more than a mother!
So, to answer the question, “what am I going to do with one more kid?” The answer is, I am going to raise them to be just like their siblings; bold, creative, intelligent, funny, talented, brave, loving, kind-hearted, and an image bearer that only God, Himself can instill in them.
Can’t wait to meet you sweetface!